Why don't I feel anything?

There are the vegan "horror books" where they take the worst cases to prove that animals are supposedly brutally tortured everywhere.

But these horror documentaries simply don't trigger anything in me; on the contrary, they only make me hungry for more meat.

Maybe I'm just a true meat eater? I mean, other animals, carnivores, don't care how much the animal suffers for its meat.

How am I supposed to feel about this? Firstly, I know that these are extreme cases, and secondly, I'm not particularly interested in the suffering of animals.

Does that make me a bad person? Maybe, but honestly, I'd rather be "bad" and "selfish" than a vegan.

So why do vegans think they can convert me like that?