What's wrong with me (daddy issues, attachment issues)?

Hello. This actually sounds extremely dramatic. I’d say you’ve completely run away from the beginning. This is the problem when children (that was definitely you with 12-13) are sexualized too early and by false sources without even understanding what is happening at all. Well, that’s what happened to you and you can’t just turn back the time and make it unheard. But you really need to edit this on a professional level. Otherwise, it can completely destroy your whole further life and your relationship to sexuality. You say you’re in therapy. I do not know what kind of therapy and whether it is the right environment to thematize it. But in any case you have to put your shame on opening professional jobs in this respect, so that this really bad thing is adequately processed. If you mean that the therapeutic environment in which you are not the right one, then inform yourself what other possibilities there are. For example, you can contact the following organization. This place specializes in all problems and problems of children and young people. They are over-convectional (so no church belongs) and you can also contact anonymously if desired. There you will meet people who take you seriously, listen to you, and have a wide network of other help points that are specially tailored to your problem. Please help. You don’t need to be ashamed. All those you encounter are highly professional and probably know countless similar stories. Here the link

https://www.nummergegenkummer.de/

I wish you all the best and much strength.