Weight keeps going up because of neuroleptics?

Hello, my name is Lilli and I am writing on my father's account.
I have depression, borderline personality disorder, and actually anorexia, and therefore have to take medication for two years (two neuroleptics and one antidepressant).
I've had ES for eight years, and since then, I've always been severely underweight (around 34 kg at 1.59 m). At first, it was fine; I ate my usual calories and exercised. At some point, the medication made it impossible for me to restrict my eating, and now, for the past year and a half, I've been eating excessively every day and no longer exercise.
All the anorexic thoughts are still there, but my body is practically screaming for food, and I can't stop. At first, I deliberately vomited my food, but that doesn't work anymore.

I now weigh 89.7 kg (193 lbs) on several scales at 1.59 meters (5'2"), and I'm 18. My blood values ​​are bad (extremely high protein, extremely high cholesterol, extremely high fat, fasting blood sugar at 129). I'm not feeling well physically; I'm always sick and bloated. The medication is the only thing that helps me, but somehow no one sees how bad it is for me. Losing weight isn't working anymore, even though I've tried again and again.

I just want to be thin again. I have EXACTLY the same anorexic thoughts, and I don't want to eat, but I can't help it.
I don't want to be that fat.
I'm at my wit's end. What do you think?

Lilli