What do I do now?

Hello,

The situation is very complicated. My parents have been divorced since I was about 3-4 years old. I had no contact with my father for years and then only met him when I was about 10. I knew he wasn't a model husband and father in the past. Nevertheless, we had regular contact throughout my youth, including with my grandparents (on my father's side). He was never a good father; I owe everything to my mother. I always knew that. But now I've learned things that make everything worse (read in black and white, court documents and from the youth welfare office, but also some things from my mother that she documented and kept). Things that make me wonder how I should proceed. I would prefer never to see him again. Unfortunately, this also affects contact with a. the grandparents and b. friends close to him. I admire my mother for being able to get through something like that. My perspective on so many things has suddenly changed and I don't really know how to deal with it. I'm suddenly questioning my whole life. I don't know how I'm going to confront him again. He's not my father, that much is clear to me.

Do you have any advice for me? Or how would you handle this situation?

Thanks in advance.

LG