What's wrong with me?

Hello, a week ago I had a really strange dream. It was about the death of two acquaintances of mine from school. I recognized one of the people in the dream; they died in an accident. What was strange, however, was that they had a different name than in reality. I can't identify the other person, but they were in my class. Ever since this dream, I've been worried that something is wrong. Before this dream, my partner and I had sex. I'm on the pill, and he ejaculated outside, but this time something must have gone in. The next day, because I was having Mittelschmerz, I did an ovulation test and it was positive (I know it's pointless when I'm on the pill), but I still had a brief period. At the weekend, we went to my mum's and I started thinking, what if I'm pregnant? Then I thought about my high blood pressure, what if there's something wrong? Then I couldn't sleep anymore. On the Monday after this weekend, I had a C/P x-ray because I recently had corona. They diagnosed not only scoliosis but also tiny densities in my right wing. Naturally, I turned to Google… That didn't help me. Now I interpret every little "symptom" as serious illnesses. I have to note that I've had this in phases since I was little. I've also experienced the death of acquaintances. Unfortunately, they died from illnesses that I've been worrying about for years. I feel really strange; I can't enjoy anything at the moment because I think I have something really bad, and I also think to myself that I can't enjoy it now. I have something like obsessive thoughts. I have a pretty persistent cough at the moment, and I feel like I'm listening to my inner voice much more, and then I think to myself, "Why do I make so many promises, etc." Because of the scoliosis and high blood pressure, I always have a stiff neck, mostly tension headaches and fatigue headaches. But I'm still thinking about it. Today I feel like I'm standing next to myself, perceiving everything as if it weren't real (I had something like that once when I was 14, just before my period), and I feel like I'm going to have a panic attack at any moment. I can't think or do anything for a second without being afraid.

A brief history of my medical history: I have depression, social phobia, hypertension, hypothyroidism, scoliosis, a specific phobia, and I take the mini-pill.

I assume that these feelings and "symptoms" have developed due to the immense stress situation and that I probably suffer from hypochondria and depersonalization or derealization.

It usually goes away after a while, but after all these years I want to know what I can do about it.

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minimax11
2 years ago

Da wird dir nur ein Therapeut weiterhelfen können. Hier aus der Entfernung keiner.

Gute Besserung! Und mach dir nicht so viele Gedanken… Versuch dich abzulenken. Mit Musik, Atemtherapie und Muskelentspannung.