Suicidal thoughts what to do?
I'm 13 years old and lately I've been thinking about what would happen if I were to die. Or rather, sometimes when I look out the window I think that I would just jump out and so on. I've only had this for a short time but for almost a year now I haven't had as much fun in life as I used to. My mother died last year and since then everything has gone downhill. I get bad grades, have a lot of obsessive thoughts, other strange thoughts and I play games a lot to distract myself. I just want things to be like they used to be. I've already spoken to my father about a lot of things but not these suicidal thoughts yet. I want to carry on living but because of these obsessive thoughts I think a lot of strange things like what if all of this isn't real and so on and I hardly find anything fun anymore. Sometimes I think to myself what would happen if I were to just kill myself even though I don't really want to because it's pointless. I want to get rid of these thoughts and fears but I don't know how. I'm also afraid of therapy or anything like that because if I do things like that then I only share them with my father. But it's only since this morning that the suicidal thoughts that used to only occur occasionally have caused me so much fear and worry. Thanks for any response.
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Whoever you don’t like to talk to him is trying to write a letter with him as you feel or just call on phone nautical care! They always help you and it is treated anonymously
I think I’ll talk to him about it, but I really wonder what to do. The thoughts are probably due to the fact that I have been relatively unhappy for a year, as already said above. He always understands me when I tell him such things he’s worried about me and sad because he knows I’m not okay
But you could also make a therapy that has helped me very much who has once overcome falls the easier
So first of all my condolences for the loss of your beloved mother. Such a thing is a heavy stroke of fate, and for a young man at your age it is so hard to get.
I lost my father for a few years. At that time, my life has come into a landslide from which I am still not completely out. I have suicide thoughts myself and am now in treatment, so I think I can understand your situation.
I’d have a few questions, and I’d be happy if you could answer that. This helps me to assess the seriousness of the situation.
For me, your story sounds like a startling depression. To do this, you must know there are different species and that are not rarity for young people like you. Depression, by the way, is a recognized disease. So that’s not what you have to be ashamed of, nor do you blame it. Just imagine it like a flu. You don’t have to be ashamed of that either. It’s best to do a little free quick test. He can’t give you a diagnosis, but at least he’ll lead you in the right direction. https://www.therapie.de/psyche/info/test/depression-test/#_
Don’t be afraid to tell your father. You need to know that your father suffers from your mother’s loss as much as you do. But now you’re all that brightens his day. He certainly tries to be there with all strength for you and you should also do that for your father. An open and honest relationship is what you need right now. Let you really help, because if you really should be in the situation that your father loses you, that will destroy his entire life. Your death would ruin him. He will suffer and never be happy again. And the worst thing is, he’ll blame himself for his life for not recognizing your situation and not doing anything for you to save your life. As a father, he will blame himself for whether you want it or not. You ruin so much more with your death than you can imagine. Believe me, I have to deal with people and survivors every day and that’s really nothing you’d want anyone. Not even his worst enemy.
Such a therapy can really help you, but most psychologists and psychiatrists have no appointments free and have long waiting lists of up to 3-6 months. You better go with your dad to your family doctor. He can give you points of contact and send you a transfer to a psychologist. Then you have shortened waiting times. And really talk to your father about it. He doesn’t rip your head off and he’s glad you let him help you because you give him the chance to do something to improve the thing.
I had, but after a time it went away again
Talk to friends who distract you, do something, seek new friends on GF or other platforms. I personally am open to everyone so if you want you can write me 😉
All good 🍀
I know what you’re writing. I helped a little dog who needs you, eating, gassi and caressing. But your father needs you too.