Head or heart?
For context, please read my other question…
I'm desperate…I think my depression is coming back. I lie in bed and think about the beautiful times I had with that girl. I can really imagine a future. But I feel pressured. Of course, that means I'll have to cut off contact with my family.
When I was having an argument with my family four months ago, my mother often told me, "If something like that happens again, one of us will die" or "…then I'll kill myself." That's not a nice thing to hear. Of course, I want to stop doing that.
What do you think, would you listen to your heart or your head?
I mean, if my mother says something like that, then I have to listen to her to prevent it from happening, otherwise it's all my fault.
The decision is greater than just between head and heart. Here it is quite clear about your happiness but also your health. You will not be able to bear the psychological terror your mother has on you forever, and you don’t have to. Take the time you need and make the decision that will make you happy in the future. You already know the answer, even if it’s hard. Even if your mother has born you, she has no right to hurt you.
P.S. I’m sorry you’re confronted with homophobia in your so close circle. The majority thinks differently than your mother and you’re just as right as you are!
Depends on whether you live with your family or not and how old you are.
If you’re underage or you’re living with your family, you’ll be able to meet her secretly.
I am 18 in two days, and I am still living with them, but it is difficult to meet with her because my parents do not trust me and leave me out unnoticed
Then wait till you get out. You can write with her for so long
Oha what is that for a mother my opinion is you just to listen to your heart not to your head. yes my grandma always says just listen to your heart not what you think or what you hear or what you only see on your heart., and your mother said she wants to kill herself and also said someone will kill herself that’s not true. She just wants to scare you so you don’t say to his daughter my father is also so he says shit to me that sucks that you don’t say.