No dream job, no goals?

Why did I never have a dream job, never have specific goals in life? Many people know from an early age what they absolutely want to be, what they want to do.

But that was never the case for me, I've never had a dream job or something specific that I really wanted to do.

No, I was even afraid of work, afraid of a normal life, afraid of being self-employed.

I was always overwhelmed by it. What could be the reason for this? Also, my brain isn't functioning as it should. As I said, pursuing goals is impossible for me because my brain is so confused.

I'm unable to work and therefore unable to live. At first, no one believed me, but eventually I was able to convince the assessors that I needed care, an institution, and a pension.

Could it be that my brain is simply not working as it should and that's why nothing is happening?

Because I feel hardly any joy, hardly any interests, hardly any drive, have no goals, no desires.

I mostly just exist. Could it be that my brain is broken?

Or how can it be that I have no wishes, no goals, no dreams, no hopes?