Is it possible that Rocket League is making me psychotic?

So I keep trying to get better at this game, and that's where the mental illness starts… You never hit the ball the way you want, and you keep trying and trying until eventually the burnout psychosis sets in, and you sit there, completely sick, in front of your screen, frantically calling every psychiatrist and describing it in such a way that you blame the medication for the horrific experience you're going through…

I take this 200mg amisulpride and got into Rocket League even though I'm schizophrenic and it can make me mentally ill.

And then you read on the Internet that because of the medication or the illness you live 15 years less on average and that the medication causes the brain to shrink, etc.

So I've reached a point where it's no longer about "life," but only about the eternal dying process that one goes through because of the illness.

It's a truly terrible illness. I see healthy people and I feel like throwing up when I see them… I die of envy and start to hate everyone… I'm so jealous of mentally healthy people because they don't even check how well they're doing…