I “like” being depressed?
Hey dear community!
I have struggled with depression in the past but have overcome it. I was/am now in a depressive phase again. I often don't feel well mentally and occasionally suicidal thoughts arise.
Lately I've been feeling well again but somehow, this may sound really strange but I want to get depressed again and imagine that someone is sitting next to me and feels sorry for me, can understand me and so on.
I often tend to imagine faking some kind of mental illness and how someone notices how bad I feel and helps me etc. Sometimes I put it into practice but not in real life because who wants other people to know that they are mentally ill, you know?
I often feel alone with my problems and just wish there was someone who understood everything and had empathy for me.
I don't know how to describe it, it's really weird – the part about wanting to be depressed, I hope someone can understand what I mean…
Why is that, does anyone know?
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I think this is really a bit normal
had to fight with depressions too & know this feeling totally, somehow romatized this time totally
it’s just so easy to drop into this hole and just don’t do anything.. You’re at a point where it can’t get any worse. but as soon as you get back to the point, it’s all very different & you just wish that you can feel something better again.
I think you have a great need of proximity and you just want to be seen and if you have depression, then there are also some excuses that others do not have.
Vllt. it’s good to go to therapy or see how you can get the GEFÜHL near and care differently.
I want to help you and you do something