Chloral hydrate addiction, I don't know what to do anymore?

I took a week off from chloral hydrate and the withdrawal was terrible,

I've been on it for four days now with very high doses; two days of consumption are enough to trigger very unpleasant withdrawal symptoms.

It acts as an intoxicant, similar to alcohol and also somewhat like benzos. How can I stop it? I just can't do it. If I don't take it, I get physical withdrawal symptoms, which are terrible. But when the physical symptoms are over, the psychological ones come. I think about it all the time. I don't enjoy anything without it anymore. I even dream about it when I sleep. What should I do?

The whole thing has been going on for 2 years and 5 months. I have done cold withdrawals again and again with delirium and very horrible symptoms as if hell merged with reality.

As soon as the level drops, I notice that I get brain zaps and feel more and more disgusting. I don't want to go through withdrawal anymore and want to stop, but on the other hand, I also want this nice effect, every day if possible.